Ugh

[m_of_disguise]

I started writing this long post, venting about how weird things are and how unhappy I've been, but it felt so whiny and self-important that I just erased it. I just regret so many of my life decisions, and I'm not sure which direction to go right now. Half of me wants to pick up everything and start somewhere new, but I know that I can't actually do that right now. I just want to get away from my family and from Texas. I used to love it here so much that I couldn't fathom moving away, but they're putting up these ugly new subdivisions every day and the state is losing its charm more and more, and it's only going to get worse. M and I are actually seriously considering Connecticut right now, which I suppose will have to do since I can't convince him to move to Europe or Africa. I feel like I'm on the verge of having to make a lot of very big decisions, and it's exhausting and taxing and I don't want to thing about it but I can't stop thinking about it, and I'm drained.

I can't wait for this year to end.

Comments

[elizabeth_mn]

It's okay to write long venting posts! I don't have much to say except I hear you.

[robinsnest]

Ew Connecticut is horrible to drive in LOL. come to Pennsylvania! Land of fun people who want to play dress up with you ;-)

also I completely empathize and remember that feeling when I realized I couldn't do theater anymore and before I had found nursing. It's a horrible feeling but it's hopefully transient.

[mandie_rw]

I'm sorry. I know that's a tough place to be in. And don't feel bad about whiny, self-important posts! I think we all need to vent sometimes.

(More facetiously, yes! Come to Connecticut! That's much closer to the mid-Atlantic and we'd love to steal you from the Texas costuming community! ;) We have nice old historic sites in the Northeast!)